Where are my original thoughts?
Why are my posts lists of things i love or hate?
Where's the honesty and realness this blog used to posess?
So what if my writing sucked; this blog is for feelings, creativity and openness.
Where are my feelings?
Where is my creativity?
Where is the openness?
I'm gonna try to get back to that. I'm better when I'm vulnerable.
There's a huge part of me that just feels like leaving my old life behind, moving to Hawaii and starting over as an island girl. Until I'm able to do that, Hawaiian music will have to tide me over which is why I've been listening to a lot of Hawaiian music lately. There's just something so soothing about the ukulele. It makes me think of better days (which I'm assuming is still to come) and I feel like if I learn it, I'll be more successful at my island girl ways.
Local musicians.
You guys, I am totally serious about this right now. I've always
wanted to be that girl that like, lives in a tiny little apartment
downtown above a small boutique or coffee shop and spends all her time
writing and playing music with random neighbors who live in the tiny
apartment next door. Unfortunately, I chose the stupid route of college
and now have to work an 8-5 job to pay off my student loans. Local
musicians though, and especially the ones in Ventura actually are living
out this fantasy of mine. I've been spending a lot of time watching
Ventura musicians on youtube and have been going to the local
coffeehouse that has live local music (Zoey's-my serious new favorite
spot). I feel so cool being there and so inspired (and slightly jealous)
of these people that get to spend their time doing what I love.
Here's a local musician that I'm totally vibing with right now.
